This message is crucial to pretty much every day of my recovery:
YOU CAN FORGIVE YOURSELF FOR NOT EXERCISING
This week has been tough for me remembering that, and has caused many sleepless nights as I worry about not being active, not looking the same as I did this time last year, running into people I know in my hometown now that I live here again (what will they think of me). Then sleepless nights lead to even poorer self care and even less movement. It’s a vicious cycle.
I may be in an insomniac’s haze currently, but WHO IN THE HELL GIVES A SHIT WHAT THEY THINK!? Half of them treated you badly anyways last time you lived here, and when you needed them most, I might add. Those people crowding your brain suck.
Wanna talk about some self talk? That’s what I’m yelling at my ED voice loud and clear while I lay under the covers and coax myself to get out into the world today.
- I moved across the country to live closer to family this year. THAT’S 665 MILES DAMMIT.
- My partner Emilie and I donated nearly $300 to eating disorder causes last year, from a workshop series that is just beginning. WE ARE TOTAL BADASSES.
- I supported my husband while he figured out his next steps in his career. I’M AN AWESOME SPOUSE.
- I got myself into Crow pose this year. CROW POSE I SAID.
- I ate intuitively this year. THAT IS AN OLYMPIC GOLD MEDAL IN EATING DISORDER RECOVERY.
- I confessed to my support system when I downloaded a health app that was tracking my calories. IT WAS AWFUL BUT I DID IT.
- I’m about to spend a week in NYC this September making my creative dreams come true for my business, all while donating a portion of the proceeds to eating disorder causes. DO-GOOD BUSINESS, Y’ALL.
- Even though I’m scared shitless, I’ve booked my first official speaking engagement at the NEDA Walk in Birmingham, Ala. on Oct. 15… I don’t have an all caps thing for this one cuz I just got really anxious.
So, write down your list of accomplishments from the last year. Now, does it matter that you were too tired or busy to exercise last week? 🙂
Even better news? You still look the same as you did 7 days ago.
We just owned this self-talk game.
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